I'm carrying through
what I know is wrong
I'm breaking into
An image so strong

My thoughts collide
Crashing into one another
and shattering my insides

The teenage pop confusion
still remains in the depths of me
Forcing out another side
That is unknown to me

Help me clear out the ghosts
that have fogged my window
Dust away the cabinet
That locks my shadow

It's time to sneak out
and rejoice the darkness
Feel the coolness of the night breeze
And the warmth of the moonlight

Just as I began my walk
Towards what seemed to be the end
The road began to turn
It took me to a place
Where I thought I was headed

Oh!
How wrong was I?
How simply uninspiring
For me to have chosen
The short path.

Look around, the trees whisper
Look how they have chosen their way
Left a long unnoticeable trail

As i set out
Yet again
On the path i have chosen
I leave the shadows
And their trail

Move towards the end
For there lies my beginning.

"Beyond myself
somewhere
I wait for my arrival"

- From "The Balcony" by Octavio Paz

How can I know what you're thinking?
How can I feel what you’re sensing?
How do I know what you’re missing?
When you are so far far away

What is it that you see when you look at my picture?
Does it comfort you or do you still miss her?
Close your eyes and picture us on a highway
What is the reason that you lose your way?

How is it that you know what i’m saying?
Life is a dream that you make up
There’s a real you that’s hidden away
So deep inside that’s its afraid to stay

Why is it that you tremble then i walk past?
The reason is unknown and that frustrates me
What is it that you know about me that I am shaking?
Its seems so hard yet I’m trying

How can I know what you're thinking?
How can I feel what you’re sensing?
Now you find that i’m missing
Fading in a world far far away

The glass broke with a shattering noise
Looking around, I hear no voice
Not a soul but me

The phantoms have sprung up
Making their way through the madness of the place
Run for your lives
Before they eat you alive
Fear is what they feed on
Terror is their domain

I was standing blindfolded
I ran towards it but could not control it
They sped past me
In different shades
Dark and bright
In many ways grey

The inky black space that threatened to swallow me
I longed to be happy fresh and free

The phantoms are closing in
Devouring my thoughts
Giving in
I think no more

Love

A violent whisper
A careless kiss
The woes of a flamboyant love

Caressing the deep passion
With a stranger amidst

A cut that lasts forever
A wound refuses to heal
The jealousy that fades away
And tenderness goes waste

Does it really last that long
A love that’s gone wrong

Two lives in turmoil

Float away in bleak pain
There’s desperation and disdain

Writhing and twisting to break free
Towards happiness that seems so sweet

You’re done for one time
And pray it to be the last time

It’s a strange night
Fighting the quiet scream
Building underneath the deep sighs

The lonesome moon looks down
Wondering what the shadows hide

The extravagant past floats by
Smirking at the obscene future
The earth spirals out of control
The screams quiet no more

The lonesome moon looks at the rising sun
And prepares to leave
It looks down one last time
Hoping to unravel the mystery of the night
It sees hope and laughter
Folded hands in prayer

As the rays hit the dark crevices
The sleepy past summons the tired future

It’s a strange day
The metamorphosis has begun

I’ll meet you
At the corner of world
Where the grass smells of candy
And the road never turns

I’ll see you
When you’re happy and gay
In a time where you fly
To a place far far away

I’ll catch you
When you’re long gone
Reach you through the mist
And pick you from the rocks

Together, we’ll play with the sand
Build castles and secret plans
Away from the stares and questions
It’ll be our own little space
At the corner of the world

Secluding the mind from the silent noise
Retracting seems to be the obvious choice
Old wounds now appear fresh

The daylight blinds you
Darkness brings peace
It’s the same ol’ story
Where everybody is happy
But you

The spirits have begun their play
Amidst the solitude
Making their way through the living

Who is it that you belong to?
Me, you or them, they merrily sing

They carry you away from those who breathe
Towards those who live

Shredding the last bit of uncertainty
You move with a vision unclear
Do not be afraid, they whisper
Dancing softly with gleaming eyes
With a hand around your waist
They lead you into the depth of your soul

The spirits have begun their play
And you float along
Into the spirited unknown

Who is it that you belong to?
Me, you or them?

Square Glass Room

The sun sets on the misty sky
The moon rising with a tear in the eye
You stare into the starry night
And wonder why its looking so forlorn

Seeking for answers in places you see
Without knowing what the question is meant to be
Your eyes grow tired
Your body goes weak
Your knees begin give in
And its hard to keep steady

Turning back to the oblivion
Where you shelter yourself from the truth
Reaching out to the shattered face
When you know you shouldn't look
Going round and round in circles
In a square glass room

Dementia

ok fine!
I lost my mind
Could'nt figure out
How could i define
That one thing that led to another
Filling up the spaces
While we held on to each other
In that little shrine
We called "divine"
What was it that fled out in the wild
Leaving you and me grappling for our lives
But thank god its gone
For Im yours
And you are forever mine

Sing for joy, sing for laughter
Sing for a love that’s ever after
Find your heart in that special place
Let it grow to long and crave
For that one single moment
That will be forever safe
In your mind and soul
Away from all that is fake

What is with your fascination with the unknown?
The inexplicable desire to walk alone
The indelible yearning to sing out loud
Mindlessly swimming in the ocean
Of passion and greed

What is with your tolerance for impatience?
The haphazard, chaotic and rich temper
Where you let your mind wander
Along the shore of uncertainty

Let it die, I say
Let it all rest

Sugar sweet makes a bitter mix
For them who have had none
What would you like? They ask
It’s not that difficult, think through
We have everything you need
And nothing you want
Come into the deeper side of us
And we’ll help you get lost
In the maze that you create
It’s hard to explain
The misery you’re in
It’s easy to know, though
You’ll never get out alive

Wanderlust

Here I am waiting for it to be light soon...coz I’m done with the day.

Here I am, sighing out loud, waiting for it to be all gay

Here I am, watching the leaves rustle on the brown tree, hoping it to be green again

Here I am, stretching myself to the limit, wishing I could go further

Here I am, praying for a second life, for there is so much to do

Having lived in black and white, here I am- foggy and grey

I love to hate my state of being

And I hate to love my floating dreams

Here I am, waiting for it to be light soon

Without doubt, I have lost control

Tell me
How do you sleep?
When your bed is cold
And your heart is sore
Tell me
How do you breathe?
When the air chokes you
And the walls close in on you
Tell me
How do you laugh?
With that loud ringing voice
Don’t you know
It’s a dead world?
Why do you pretend
To be sorry for it all
When you are gloating
At my fall
Is it not true
That you held on as long as you could
Till you found your shelter
Tell me
What you did not before
All those secret thoughts of yours
Well hidden in that dark spot
Very close to your heart
Decayed and rotten
Tell me
What do you dream of now?
A better you
Or a smothered me?

New Year resolution

With everything in front
And Behind
You're trying hard to decide
Whther to let it all go
And take that plunge
Begin your journey into the unknown
Or hold on as tight as you can
To the last shred of certainity
That bound you all these years
Whichever road you take
Wherever you may go
Take evrything you have
For the memories will fade
And the days will grey
You is all you will have
Save yourself today
For the best is yet to come